Time

    It's funny how time works. I remember being an older child sitting in "time out" and wishing that I could make time go by fast, but as I was sitting there I was thinking about the next thing on my agenda that day, playing at my friends house. I then decided I wanted time to go by slow so that way I could have lots of playing time.
    Just as I was torn many years ago about time I find myself in the same dilemma today. A part of me wants these last 5.5 weeks of pregnancy to go by fast so that I can finally meet my little guy, but at the same time these last few weeks are the last precious weeks that James and I will be just us 2. Dont get me wrong I am ESTATIC to be having baby and don't want it any other way, but I do know that alot of things are going to change post baby. Our sporadic, impulsive, living on a limb kind of life style is going to have to change and I want to be sure to enjoy these last few weeks we have to live this way (you're probably thinking...its about time they grow up haha)
    Patiently waiting for this baby to come reminds me a lot of when I was patiently waiting (or attempting to) for James to come home from his mission. The situations are very similar. I knew the approximate date months before the meeting would happen, we knew each other - to some degree - from writing letters, just like I know this baby to some degree from a) him being made up of genes from James and I and b) because I have spent 24/7 with him for the last 8 months. :), and most of all the meeting face-to-face. What will it be like when we see each other for the first time? what will I say? how will I react? cry, laugh, smile,be in shock, how will he feel? will he really look like the pictures? how will my family act when they meet him? Will they truly understand this connection I have with this boy?
Just like all the answers to those questions turned out perfect in regards to meeting James I know they will also be answered perfect in their own way in regards to our little boy. SO EXCITED!