Second Trimester has been REALLY easy for me. Besides some heartburn and some asthma issues and some back pain and achy feet at the end of the day everything has gone so smooth for me. I know that some people during pregnancy complain and complain and complain some more. I definitely did not want to be that friend/wife/daughter who was grumpy all pregnancy so I have tried hard to keep a smile on when things arent comfortable and remember what this is all about...our son.
Lately I've been having a hard hard time getting over the fact that my body is CHANGING and I had to accept to tough realizations:
- I am going to see numbers I've never seen before when I step on the scale
- I am going to have to let go/make modifications to my wardrobe to cover my ever growing belly
- No matter how often or for how long I go to the gym I AM going to put on weight and my body WILL store fat alot easier
- I can't workout like I did before
- I couldn't/can't wakeboard, go on long hard hikes, rock climb and other fun summer activities
- My eating habits have to change so that I can get some more calories, but make them calories that count and are filled with nutrients
These are just a few of the things that have been hard adjustments for me. Even harder than being sick, having minor asthma attacks, having heartburn, back pain, and feet that I want to amputate by the end of the day. I knew that by getting pregnant my body would change and that all of these changes would happen. What I couldn't have anticipated is what parts of pregnancy would be hard for me.
All of that being said I wouldn't change a thing! I love so many things about being pregnant :)
- I LOVE feeling our little man squirm, roll, kick, punch all.day.long.
-I LOVE knowing that I am growing a little human inside of me
-I LOVE that Heavenly Father trusted us to have one of his children in our family to love and care for
-I LOVE when my husband talks to my belly or just rests his hand on my belly to feel him move
-I LOVE when my husband emails me from work and ends with "I miss you babe and I miss my son. Tell him I love him"
-I LOVE that in 15.5 weeks we will have another member of our family
-I LOVE looking at baby things and choosing things out not for a friend or a shower, but for ME and for MY baby to wear and use :)
-I LOVE getting those butterflies everytime I see baby things in the store or someone holding a new baby
-I LOVE the constant desire to be sewing, making, setting up something for our son
-I LOVE thinking of names and wondering what will be the best fit for our boy
And something that I've had to learn from my things that I listed that have been hard is that I love this oppurtunity I have to learn so much. I am grateful to learn to be selfless in a way no other circumstance can teach you. To completely turn my body over to the number one priority...taking care of our son. To learn to think of another person everytime I put something in my mouth to eat or decide if I should really do one activity or another. As I was feeling a little down the other night James turned to me and said.."you know you're the lucky one though. You're the one that gets to show our son you love him so much before he is even born. By making the sacrifices you are you are showing him the ultimate form of love the love of a mother." I am so grateful for such a supportive husband who always knows the right things to say. And when I forget how to be so selfless I just look at how James treats me...like walking in from a 12 hr shift at work and the first thing he does is kiss my forehead and start rubbing my feet or when im tossing and turning in the middle of the night and cant get comfortable he goes upstairs, grabs me an extra pillow and a glass of water without me saying a thing. Then I remember what being selfless is all about. I realize all of the things that I am learning while being pregnant are things that will help me in the future of raising children: selflessness, lack of sleep, some loss of control over everything, trying to balance attention for my husband and attention for kids and so much more.
I realize that a woman's attitude during pregnancy is everything. I could spend my time worrying about all the things that have been hard so far, but by doing that I would miss out on all the great wonderful things that I've been able to love. I am so happy to be experiencing all of this!